THE KEY TO MY AWAKENING
A confession, apology, and invitation to discover bliss
I’m a recovering work-aholic. Historically, my M.O. was to prioritize work before myself and my relationships.
Being a spiritual healer is a bit like being an on-call surgeon with a buzzer, except you have the people and the Archangels and Ascended Masters ringing you.
Because I love my clients, and my work is my soul mission, learning to take care of myself first has been a blind spot. And although I still end up awake half the night sometimes (Spirit likes to talk at all hours Lol), I have learned that I can’t be an open channel 24/7.
It’s been a long road to freedom, meaning it’s taken me billions of lifetimes (including the inter-dimensional ones) to accept that I can chill the heck out and simply enjoy life. I’ve learned that God only wants for me what I want for myself.
I have gone from self-imposed shackles to self-liberation! I share my experience, in case it’s helpful to you or someone you know who lives “in service” to others (i.e. parents, teachers, healthcare providers, business owners, etc).
Each of my spiritual awakenings happened after I burned myself out to complete utter exhaustion. Why did the Heavens rain incredible gifts down upon me in moments of collapse? Because I finally surrendered and focused on myself. When I paid attention to me and my needs, the Universe followed my lead.
My first awakening happened at age 18. After endless efforts to help my depressed mother discover happiness, I left for college, where, for the first time, I discovered my own happiness.
My second energetic opening happened at 29. After countless efforts to save my fiancé from alcoholism, I broke off our engagement and enjoyed writing and publishing poems.
My third major awakening happened at 40. After round-the-clock efforts to be the best writer and professor that I could be, I left an all-consuming job. And after nursing my dying husband back to health, I left him too. Rather than trying to convince him that God is real (and he can heal himself), I committed to my spiritual practice.
My fourth awakening happened at 43 when my ex-husband passed away. His cancer relapsed, and I let him go. I did not try to save him.
Although it may appear that I have left people, I have loved these people. Each time I truly let the person I love go, they came back to me, healed. (Even Josh, who is no longer in a physical body.)
This letting go has been my path to discovering Love, for real. With each surrender (small or large), my energetic and intuitive gifts opened exponentially. Like a trapeze artist, each time I let go God has met me and the people I love.
My fifth awakening happened this past November. After growing a local healing practice and beloved community, I let my healing center go. I was Guided to own the fact (out loud!) that I am a world-class healer, charge appropriate prices for my private sessions, and travel the world delivering large group light transmissions that are available to everyone everywhere. It was scary to let go. I swung out into the dark unknown and allowed myself to free-fall into my fear. I did this with no safety net. I did not have the money to travel and I had no idea if people would want to receive healing by distance. The fact that you don’t need to be physically in the same room as your healer was a new concept to a lot of people. All I had was God’s word that this is my path.
Faith is a valuable currency.
As an open channel to the Divine and someone who remembered her soul purpose at age two, I’ve always felt absolute joy to share the love and wisdom that I receive naturally. Learning that I’m not here to save the world (I’m here to enjoy being myself), on the other hand, has been an on-going process. My bliss turns to stress whenever I try to help. When I relax and trust, everyone is healed.
The savior doesn’t save anyone. The savior shows up in love, as Love. Everyone everywhere is saved because the savior is completely present with him or herself. This is the Ascension. We are each the Savior.
I am a healer. I clear hidden trauma, fear, pain, and doubt. I raise the energetic vibration in the human body and in the body of the earth. I do my piece to help usher in a golden age where love prevails on this planet. I simply am the love I’m looking for. And I err when I prioritize loving people and the planet at the expense of loving myself. World peace is an inside job. The ascension is nothing more than my shift in consciousness, which is your shift in consciousness. And your shift in consciousness is mine.
We awaken together, not alone, and the path is straight through the self. Inside the heart. Our collective breakthrough happens every time one person shows up, faces whatever fear (aka darkness), and allows it to dissolve in the light of love.
The path is, was, and always will be through our humanity. If you want to wake from the dream of being imperfect, insufficient, alone or unloved…. If you want to wake from the collective lie that there’s any such thing as evil in the world, there’s a war to win, a disease to conquer, or anyone needs you to save them, then stop right now. And breathe. Feel your feelings.
Actually, awakening is simple. Simply don’t abandon yourself.
Be here with yourself. Stop trying. Stop running. Face death. Let go.
You are an eternal being. That is the truth. We really are Love itself. The only death is that of my own ego.
I am preparing to deliver a series of Light Transmissions that quite literally heal the crucifixion, slavery, terrorism, war, the holocaust, the fall of Lemuria, the sinking of Atlantis, the sinking of the Titanic, the fall of the Temples, the end of the Golden Age in Ancient Egypt, etc. (old denied pain in our collective energy field). Together we’re healing suicide, addiction, violence, rape consciousness, etc. (current pain in our collective energy field that is still being denied). When I say “the collective,” I’m not only speaking to certain people. And when I say violence, I’m not talking about only the murderers. I’m talking about all people, everywhere, alive or dead, across all time, space, dimension, and reality. I’m talking to you and me. Each of us is equally part of our collective reality. Nothing actually exists outside of me. If I want school children to be safe, then I witness the fear inside my own heart and allow it to heal, for real.
I see miracles all day, every day in my work as an ascension guide. I also see suffering. Avoidance of self IS humanity’s collective suffering. If you’re human and you’re not yet fully enlightened, then you have this addiction. We all do. Presence with the self cures diseases of the mind and body. It’s the path to freedom.
I still fall back into my old ways of working myself to death. I care so much about the awakening of mankind, that I sometimes can’t find time to take care of my basic needs. Like I chose not to pay myself last year, so I could finance this much-expanded love movement.
Nothing makes me happier than putting my unique gifts to work and helping others awaken their gifts and joyfully fulfill their unique soul’s purpose. That said, I’m happy the days of denying myself and my needs are done!
Learning to love, support, and feed myself first was my path (the portal!) to the most infinitely unconditional love I never could have imagined!
I found TRUE undying love. Within myself.
We don’t need to sacrifice ourselves for love. We need to honor ourselves—honor our own journey, and honor one another.
I apologize to my mother, my ex-fiancé, and to anyone who I ever wanted to wake up. I saw how perfect and brilliant you are and I wanted you to see it too. I loved you so madly it hurt. I focused my attention on you and your awakening and avoided myself and my own awakening. (Ho’oponopono)
I hereby apologize to my own heart for neglecting myself. Dear Heart, I RECEIVE all your love NOW.
After finally committing myself to being inside my own heart (and discovering God for real), I can now say that, as much as my struggle with codependence sucked a big bone, I’m grateful for it. Releasing my biggest karmic block continues to be my personal miracle that delivers all miracles.
If you would like to receive a FREE LIGHT TRANSMISSION to help you become present with yourself and RECEIVE YOUR DIVINE INHERITANCE, it will be my honor to share divine love with you on 3/30/18, Good Friday. (Registration required). It is my joy to invite you to love yourself first.
Part of my unique soul purpose is to support the leaders of the ascension to remember themselves and their soul mission. Many of us are angels, walk-ins, star people, or other high-level light beings having a human incarnation. There’s good reason why you may have certain struggles with self-appreciation, self-care, being seen and heard, etc. We heal our own self-denial by taking excellent physical, mental, emotional, and energetic care of guess who. (You know.) YES, you!
We do our part to clear the density and raise the vibration of the people and the planet by being present with ourselves.
If you are a light worker (a person!) who puts yourself last, stop right now and take a break.
May we freely share our joy, love, money, talents, and energy with the world! (But not at your own expense, right?)
This is an incredible time to be alive as the old power structure is shifting, and Light Leaders are remembering who they are. We are here with a mission to discover ourselves and everyone as pure love, and nothing is more freeing and exhilaratingly exciting than releasing our painful illusions.
Illusion #1: There’s a world outside myself that I am responsible for saving.
After all these lifetimes of trying to save the world, what a load off to discover that I need only be!
If you want to relax, play, and enjoy this infinitely miraculous experience we’re sharing (life!) with me in a group setting with other awakening masters, please join my mailing list on my website. My specialty is mentoring ascending masters as they awaken to their gifts and most joyful purpose.
I discovered a path to freedom over many years of personal experience inside my own ascension process. If you want to work/play with me privately, I offer life-changing and world-changing healing/coaching (an enlightenment delivery system). These healings lovingly release hundreds, thousands, millions of past-life traumas, awaken your unique gifts and true self. I am accepting up to five new clients in June. This is your commitment to you, and at least a 6-month process, possibly up to a year. If you are truly ready to put your money where your heart is, please contact me, very briefly and concisely tell me your story, your number one challenge, your intention, and any question you have about the program. Send me a statement of commitment to yourself and your path, and I will “tune in” to see if I am a Guide for you at this time. I will get back to you in May, after this next adventure in Mexico and California! (I’m unplugging after this post!)
By the way, if you’ve read down this far, you are a leader of the ascension. Please follow my new Facebook Page. More is coming soon, check out our brand new virtual meeting space. This is a 12-D community center for light leaders. We are gathering in the “center” of ourselves. Please share with love-obsessed light workers who are ready to relax and discover true passion within themselves.
You’ll see I changed my name! Well, I didn’t actually change it. God spoke my divine name into my ear. And I recognized it. I remember now who I am. Isa Dona, Earth Healer and Divine Mother. I heal the earth’s ley lines and my own heart. I awaken love consciousness by loving myself, by allowing myself to be loved,
It doesn’t matter if you’re a doctor, scientist, stay at-home mom or dad, filmmaker, student, or organic sprout farmer. It doesn’t matter what your background conditioning is or whether your mind is judging this post. It doesn’t matter what religion, god, or guru you follow, what your gender or sexual orientation is, how old you are, where you come from, what you look like, whether you feel fulfilled or lost, whether you enjoyed a green smoothie or raw bison for breakfast. If you allowed yourself to read this meandering holy river of a post in its entirety, then you are no doubt here to awaken love.
I thank you from my bottomless heart for being here. Simply your presence is service. Thank you for being you! Thank you for saying Yes at this crucial time when you (exactly as you are today) are so needed. Thank you for accepting the invitation sent by your soul.
My goodness, how long we’ve waited to come together. Thanks for showing up to the biggest party in the universe, The Ascension! Hooorraaaaay!
Oh, to dance with you, again!
I especially want to thank my magical Sacred Assistant Faery Rose and Kata Wilson (my soul’s twin sister) for your dedication to yourself, and to me. Thank you thank you to my friend and business coach Akara Sophia, for helping me recover from burn out so that I can give generously from a full cup. Thank you to the Ascension Academy tribe (who are gathering as we speak) for trusting yourselves. Thank you to my parents (loving soul teachers), my sister Nadine, and my friends and clients for being you. You are my heart. I couldn’t do any of this without you.
And, eternal thank yous for Kaia Ra, for your undying service to humanity.
Because I am committing to myself, to joyfully sharing love around the globe (The Holy Wholeness & Infinite Freedom Group Healing Series), to leading a mastermind modern-day mystery school for ascending masters (The Ascension Academy), to witnessing my five Awakening Master Mentees (Awakening Masters’ Mentoring Program), and hot damn I want to create space to play and wander, I will be reserving individual sessions for clients who are committed to their awakening. To work with me, please stay tuned for details about the above programs. (Thanks for flying with me, you’re amazing!)
My intention is to share Love with everyone everywhere! And I will always share as much as I can, as I am able. Thanks for sharing this post if you feel excited about any of this.
I love you, Brilliant Light. And I can’t wait to SEE you.
Thank you for answering The Call to Love!
PS: Calling all Angel Benefactors. I need your help! If you’d like to make a one-time or monthly love offering to support The Grateful Living Tour, please mail a personal or certified check to: Jennifer Chapis, All Love Healing, P.O. Box 218, Wilmington, NC 28402. Please make checks payable to: Jennifer Chapis
photo by Chris Van Atta
Isa Dona (aka Jennifer Chapis) is an ascension guide dedicated to global love consciousness. By way of the highest light, she uses her unique intuitive and energetic gifts to offer life-changing healing activations, clearings, and regressions, worldwide. Her signature group light transmissions heal the earth’s energy grid and contribute to the collective awakening of mankind. Learn More.
About my use of the word “God”: Please hear whatever name or language speaks to you and your beliefs (Jesus, Buddha, Allah, Krishna, Goddess, Spirit, Holy Sophia, Mother-Father, Source, Pure Love, Creation, The Universe, Your Highest Self). My commitment is to Love. The love energy I deliver is all-embracing of all religions and all beings and is not affiliated with any single faith or belief system.
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